“If you just tried and took me by the hand, we would’ve been happy in love.”
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I don't give a fuck anymore
Saturday, November 27, 2010 || Saturday, November 27, 2010
You really wanna know how I really for you?
Well, here's my middle finger to show you. :)
Oh, look!
Saturday, November 20, 2010 || Saturday, November 20, 2010
I freaking hate you now.
Seriously.
Monday, November 8, 2010 || Monday, November 08, 2010
How freaking stupid was I to let go? I just realized I lost so many precious people because I
EXPECTED TOO MUCH, and
I RAN AWAY from my problems.
And being dumb, being a coward led me to lose people I should've given more importance.
I lost my bestfriend, Katrina and left her for the friend who PROMISED me she'd be there always. I'm really really really sorry. I wish I could go back in time if it were possible. Because she promised nothing would change, and unfortunately SHE did.
I lost my group, Vherqksxz who were there to accompany me.. they were there to never make me feel alone for the people who talk behind my back and would leave me if they had the chance.
I lost friends who I thought never cared for the friends who I always expected would.
I lost the guy who accepted me and never ever left me despite my imperfections for the guy who happily left.
Expectations forced me to forget. Regrets forced me to remember.
You're happy, right?
Thursday, November 4, 2010 || Thursday, November 04, 2010
Happy without me. Then, I'll be happy too because you're having the greatest time of your life now that I'm not around, that I'm not there, that we aren't together.
I miss us though even if it was just a mistake; even if WE were just a mistake. Two people who were meant to fall in love but not meant to be together.
However, if God would ever make me choose between having you for a while then ending in heartbreak and not having you at all?
I'd gladly choose having to have known and had you. The pain is and was worth it. Everything was worth it. Because for that time that I have
— HAD you... I was happy; truly and sincerely happy.
I'm ready. I'm ready to let go.
I never thought it was easy..
Tuesday, November 2, 2010 || Tuesday, November 02, 2010
Because for two weeks, I almost went crazy. You were the first thing I think of in the morning and the last thought before I sleep, and it usually hurt. I'd usually lie in bed and cry quietly.
But now, after a few days of thinking, lazying around and meeting other people. I became better. Not seeing you proved to be magical on my heart. I love you, yes. But I don't see us being together anymore, nor do I want to. I love you but I think I'm ready to let go, just like what you did.
I can't afford to be friends anymore though, because feelings that I buried deep down my heart might just resurface and break me all over again. Because like what I said before, moving on for me is not forgetting... it is merely accepting things as they are and moving on forward.
Picking up the pieces weren't easy if you do it alone, but with friends who care? :) Easy as pie. That's why I'm happy now even though some parts are still missing because its with you.. but my friends are good at filling it up again. I might tear up once in awhile but I will smile through it all because I have people who loves me just as I love them.
