I cannot believe what just happened.

You know what, I never really liked having the hair of those commercial models for shampoos, conditioners, salons, and those other haircare products cause really, I have that kind of hair. Not bragging but I have mid length natural straight and silky smooth hair. Yes, I really do. It just gets really nasty at times: barely manageable and it tends to horribly fly away. I seldom thought of having it straightened, and the thought floats away eventually. One day though, my bestfriend wanted to rebond her hair; since she's my bestfriend and we like to do the same things together, I wanted to rebond my hair too (for the first time). I didn't research about it thinking that the effects would be nice because her rebonded hair looked totally awesome. I JUST WANTED IT STRAIGHT AND MANAGEABLE. So, we planned to get our hair rebonded at the same time but unfortunately, my mom made me go first because my aunt wants to get hair treatment something, I forgot. We went into some unknown hairsalon but my mom knew a hairdresser from that certain salon and she trusted that mthrfckng hairdresser so I blindly put my trust into that mthrfckr too. I LET HIM? touch my beautiful locks and cut 4 cm (which is equivalent to a half year worth of hair growth) off. I was pissed, yes because I didn't ask him? to trim my hair. Ugh. I painstakingly waited for my hair to grow long andandandand.....

Moving along, the rebonding process started. I was honestly scared for it would be the first time I would let anyone touch my hair besides someone cutting it. I sat through that boring bullshit session for almost 5 hours and look what we have here, I FORGOT MY I-FUCKING-TOUCH. I was bored. BORED. BORED. AND BORED. Though, I really hoped it would be ok. On the other hand, I don't know what the hell happened to my hair afterwards. It was thin. MTHRFCKNG THIN. Frizzy. It smelled utterly horrible too (like burnt hair or something). And it was kinda dry. And still wavy at the bottom and slightly fly away. I thought it'll get better after I take a bath. HOWEVER. After two days, I noticed tons of MTHRFCKNG HAIR FALLING. As in, when I brush my hair with my fingers, 5 strands would fall. I was DAMN SCARED. AND DAMN PARANOID. I kept brushing, and hairstrands kept falling. Wait, being scared is an understatement. I AM BEYOND TERRIFIED. Like what in heavens am I gonna do? DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN. I shat brix people. I SHAT MTHRFCKN BRIX.

I guess. My hair (particularly at the left top) is almost totally burnt to the point that it was brittle and little force would take to just break it off. I am, in a way, mrthrfckng wrathful.

Ok. I got my hair checked by that mthrfckng guy? just a few hours ago. I guess he was scared of the damage he just made and concluded to have the hot oil treatment to fix it a bit. Okay, I didn't trust him but what more could I do? I prayed it would really do fix it. After the said treatment, my hair did get better. And the ordeal was done, no more falling hair and it was pretty again. And dumdumdumdum, everything was fine!

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But who the hell am I kidding.

No, it did not get better. Not even a teeny tiny bit. My hair was still supermega brittle and stuff. Hair still kept falling (I am gonna have a mthrfckng bald spot if this continues) T ^ T

I don't want this. Seriously. I made one big fat mistake and I now regret it with all my sad little heart. No one warned me about this. No one warned me that this rebonding shit's effect would be irreversible. No one warned me my (once) pretty hair would die. No one warned me I COULD GET BALD. I'm definitely putting too much drama but who the hell cares, I could get seriously bald here and that itself is too much drama I could never handle. These are the days in which I wish that overweight Santa would give me a fckn time machine.

This is all my fault. Pretty much. Because I was ignorant. Man, the internet was ready and available for some info-digging but I didn't. I wish I wish wish. ;| I WISH MY HAIR WOULD GROW BACK.